Doing hard things todayšŸ˜µā€šŸ’« like co parenting with my ex. Looking back, I wish I would’ve done things differently. His parents owned the marital home. I asked if I could stay during the divorce and they never responded. So I rushed out. Got my own apartment because being with him was unbearable. But I wasn’t financially ready. I struggled HARD for a year trying to make it work on my own. Then I moved back in with my mom. And co parenting is still tense. He doesn’t help me unless he thinks he can get me back and it’s not out of love. It’s control and manipulation. I don’t get child support. It’s a lot. If I could go back, I’d do things differently. But I have to remind myself that yes, I’m struggling now. Yes, financially it’s heavy. Yes, co parenting is hard. But I could have stayed. I could have dedicated my whole life to a man who didn’t love me. I could have been miserable for 20 years and left when I’m older, realizing I wasted all that time. Right now it’s really hard. But at least I’m rebuilding. At least I got out. At least I’m working toward the life I actually deserve instead of staying in a marriage that made me depressed. Doing the best for myself IS doing the best for my children. That’s what I remind myself when things get heavy šŸ’• #coparenting #divorce #doingthehardthings #singlemom #rebuilding